dinner.with you

我吃过最好吃的晚餐，就是每一顿跟你在一起吃的晚餐。今晚不例外。

没有你在身边的晚餐。。。不懂味道会是酸？或甜？或苦？或辣？

感觉不到你的温度，会很寂寞吧？


还有19天。

晚安了 我的今天

很快的。

uglieeee huh,but who cares...=']时间过得非常非常的快。。。从2008到2009到现在，新年也很快就要过了。。。情人节也快到了，离开家里的日子也越来越靠近了。

我不知道这样子的选择是对或是错。。。不过我想我都应该学习去面对，这么多年以来我都没有离开过家，离开过爱我的妈妈 爸爸 也没有真的离开过我生活的小小城市，除了去旅行度假。。。还有20天我就要走了，20天很快就会过去了对吧？我不懂处于现在这样状态下的我 可以做什么。。。

过不久我将在一个我完全陌生的城市里开始我的生活，没有我最爱最重要的爸爸妈妈弟弟。没有我最喜欢的她。没有一直都陪在我身边 很可爱 很酷 很有意思 我很爱而也很爱我的朋友们，不能再看见真正的你们。。。除了透过照片，视讯。也很少时间会听得到你们的声音。。。更是手想碰想互动也感觉不到的你们。。。哈~我不懂我会不会抓狂而死掉。。。怎么办？！= =''
你们会不会想我？会不会忘记我？坦白说我很怕失去你们勒~ ><"

我们会在不一样的城市生活。。。同样一片天空，但是当我那边天黑了，你们还是蓝天白云的。。。我只能在梦里跟你们一起玩~ 还'玩'勒= ='' 当你们那边是晚上的时候，而我那边是白天。。。也不能跟你们一起睡觉，不过 本来我们也就没有睡在一起的习惯，算了~

不懂身边没有我的爸爸妈妈会不会开心一些 少了一个人在家气他们，不懂弟弟会不会也开心一些因为同样也少了一个人对他凶~骂他！！！！ 不过我知道他们一定一定会很想念我。。。尤其是妈妈。

而你呢？好几年了。。在你身边，现在我要走了。。。一段日子里你再也见不到我啦，没有我缠着你绕着你转，也不会再被我莫名其妙的烦。。。应该也会更开心了吧 =') 很多人会照顾你所以我不在了也不会有什么不一样 我只希望你是开心快乐的，这样就够了 你+我=遗憾？希望不会 =')

我最爱的朋友们，希望你们会过得好好的，开开心心 健健康康 一切都会很好的，也希望在我回来以后再见到我，你们还是一样爱我 =']

好累，又还没走就那么多废话。。。虽然不想说byebye, but then i think i should stop here if not whn the time im goin to leave , i will be speechless and nothing to say....

so...ciao = =

happy chinese new year world!!!

GONG HEI FATT CHOY everyone!!!

我。失望了

一次一次的相信，一次又一次对你的信任。。。
却得到一次一次隐瞒，一次又一次的欺骗。。。
原来。。。我才明白，我真的很不快乐。。。

其实我清楚明白你早已经不再是原本的那一个你。。。
我也不懂我到底一直在硬撑什么？期待什么？等待什么?为了什么？难过什么？开心什么？

我常说我不是傻瓜，我做的一切你接受，你感受得到，你也会对我好。。。你给的一切也只是曾经，现在我有的是什么？想想。。。好像什么都没有，=‘）算了。我好累，没时间计较。。。不过我真的很在乎啊。。。我可以怎么做？我还可以怎样。。。？

我也才明白，原来不是这样的。。。一直被骗被骗被骗再被骗。。。也不懂被骗了多少次。。。
失望的感觉原来是那么的烂~

你聪明，你很漂亮，但你还是会让人失望。。。
这一次我真的对你 失望了。。。我可以一个人在房间里狂哭，我可以打文章释放自己的烂心情，我还可以做什么？

看着你，却什么都不能说。。。想骂你但又觉得自己好小器，想不理你但又舍不得浪费跟你在一起的时间，想怪你但又觉得事实是这样不完全是你的错。。。我为自己找了好多’其实你不是这样的借口。。。都怪我自己为什么要非你不可啊，我要的 我志在必得 我执着什么？我放不开是因为我真的很爱很爱。。。

真的一定要没有了期待，才能清楚明白眼前的未来吗？

我失望了。对你。现在

晚安了我的疲惫。我的今天。

我会依然在这里，当然。。。眼前还有必须继续的未来。

beginning of 2009 =')

happy new year all...itz almost two weekzz i doesnt update my blog...times fly by, 2008 had passed...a new year started and new life begin... woohooo....hope everything will fine and great in 2009...

had a photoshoot with alive and lunior on last sundaee...a cute girl,and a handsome boy...super dooper tired but kinda fun though...

here's the result of the shoot on that day...i like it alot too...

nahhh this two is ah hua and ah bai...seriously im happy that u guys are thr accompany me for the shoot...i noe u guys wan go kaypoo also wan la...but thx also la...lurve you guys...lurve ah bai.lurve ah hua...no 'lala no life...will be quite busy this week...so ciao 1st...will be back soon!!!

happy new year...=')

merry x'mas and happy happy x'mas world!!!

merry christmas world...haha,

how did u guys celebrate your christmas eve? with your loves one? your family? your buddies...? =')

went gurney for dinner and move to sunset bar for x'mas eve count down last nite...full of people everywhr, and sunset was full house...we wait for like an hour only we can find a place and sit down...order drinks...yuuhooo...

althou its nothing much more special last nite just sat down and drinks...,but u noe itz warmth that u can see every of your close fren your homiees on chirstmas eve isn't...everyone was thr... ming,anerly,nick,szhin,and vincent...itz just like family re-union larhhzz...

too bad terry wasnt in penang,if he is thr everything would be more 'sexayyy...and hot,haha...

fireworks, peoples dancing around,drinks...wishing each others merry christmas a very peaceful and relax scene...=') took lotsa picture last nite...everyone was camwhoring...

pictures time...woohoo

sunset bistro...

lala ming...=Xpeople mountain people sea...super dooper 'SAT YI TAI~
hot girls...woohoo...ah lian and ah bai~too hot...so kena flirt...that 'angmorh sipeh 'hang fuk....wassup bro...mingming meimei and me...=')' the kiap-ness...so enjoy meh...? sexayy....

neway MERRY CHRISTMAS again and HAPPY NEW YEAR

may the spirit of peace prevail in everyone heart.

chao.

tan penny where you are?!!!

errllluuu...at last im here, itz been almost 2 weeks i doesnt blog...wad to do,im a big fat lazeee bum wert...lotsa things happen between,some are happy and some arent...haih...feeling kinda down and lost recently, times fly by...itz now end of the year...gonna say byebye to 2008 soon...

i seriously miss my fren alot...miss the time we used to hang out together,laughter, making noise together, crap...taking pictures,sharing each other problems...itz like kinda long doesnt meet all of them...im really happy too see all of them yesterday...anerly,vincent,wendy,nick,szhin,janice and terry baby....=')

went jusco with wendy yesterdae afternoon, bought myself a pair of shoe...my first pair of converse 'jack parcell, met anerly and vincent thr...and we went for photoshoot after that...becoz im too bored and i hv nothing to do...and i had promised both of them before i gonna make them a shoot...and now i make it haha...lurve you guyz....

parts of shoot for them...sweet huh! =')

vinvin meimei and big fat meeee....went penang at nite for meet up terry baby...itz been like few month doesnt meet him up...since he is workin at kl...and now he's back in penang,super dooper miss him...he's getting 'hiao-er and hiao-er...but love him still la! haha...me la...janice la...nick la..zhin la...and terry la...went tanjung bunga for supper, wantan mee....and went sunset' after that...reach home around 5am and im having a wedding event photoshoot today...and i just reach home for not long ago...hooooooooooo feel lyke bang the wall and die!!! tired till death!!! goin to zzzZZZzzz now...

two posing kaki...woohooo~

ey 'cantik~ satu kali BERAPA?!met taceyon thr...too bad just hello and byebye...??? = ="wooohooo here comes my hotiee boy! terry baby...

chao.

good night . my weekend